I find the dynamic so different when I make art while looking after Sandy. Although I would prefer to work alone or with one of the other Laalaas, I feel like I'm teaching her to be an artist via working as an artists assistant and her company is comforting. Plus she takes valuable documentation. The spoken word isn't on my resources list. Especially not the chat of a mum. It's like after a lifetime (almost 50 years) of being an only child, I have a sister at last.

Why?
Who is my audience?
Why is it so different outside of a gallery and on my own? Outside of cabaret and venue?
It's research and development. My lab. My workshop. 
What other resources do I need? People? Feedback?
Always thinking of how best to communicate the things that I can't put into words. But are the Tiny Acts communication or are they the R&D? Maybe sometimes they're not both. The communication isn't always "external" i.e. between me and other people.
People in the street, in the park, aren't looking for art. They have other agendas and I'm not necessarily looking for them as an audience. How does the shaman work when not in public?
What venues do I feel safe in? And feel free in? Or able to work comfortably within their restrictions? (Noise, mess, respect...)
​What do I need to communicate or explore, either to others, myself or materials?

Saying a goodbye too soon to Pat Fish.
Down tools.
Take some time.
Think
Celebrate what's left, be it memories, new life, legacy. What is precious? How can we make the best possible life?
Preserve the past
Reuse and recycle the past
Take cuttings from the past
Plant seeds from the past
Propagate the past
​Add a new verse to the past

Just bought a house.
Back to Northampton.
Nice big studio in basement.
The dresses can be on a rail.
I'm creating a gap.
​Reconnecting.

There will be time again. There are surely other ways.
By post
email
telephone message
recorded message
video

Museums are not places where expired objects go to enjoy a gentle retirement. They're there to make us think about them, and the objects they display and about us and to argue. Museums are about the story of us. Places of learning. Places where we see our own controversies reflected.
Museums have always been political and controversial. A safe place for difficult conversations, constructively. Museums have to relate to the present. We study the past to find out about us. To think differently about us. And then our world helps us think about the past differently. It's a conversation. A place of refuge and inspiration.

German - modular and logical
French - flights of fancy, romantic, intuitive
Both are creative.
Science feels German up to a point. Quantum physics is more French.
Logic and magic
Language and measurement are just our ways of understanding everything, it's fine if it breaks down, falls apart. That is the point at which things become interesting.
The liminal.
The gaps.
The twilight.
The beginning of disintegration or morphing.

Some of the most productive meetings I have are with myself.

I want to be in The Funcanny space with the others. I don't know if I can. I'm confused about time and intimidated by space. So I am making a dress that allows me to be in two places at once via a chroma key green lining and under-dress within a black velvet dress with black velvet globes. Images from the Funcanny space and from others connect me to them.

Button moon
Moon button
Black velvet sphere
Button hole black hole
​Black hole spritzkuchen